I'm the worst. It was a horrible result. I feel so worthless I want to die. Why am I like this? Why can't I just be better? Father had such high hopes for me, but I couldn't meet his expectations. Not even once. It was all meaningless, just because I wasn't good enough. It was stupid of Father to expect so much from a worthless fool like me.
Why am I me? Why wasn't I just born better? Why am I not the child Father wanted?
But excuses aren't going to help me now. Only hopeless idiots fritter away their lives with self-hatred. I don't have time. I need to work even harder. I need to live up to Father's expectations. It doesn't matter how high they are. I don't want to disappoint him. Never again.
I know I should stop thinking about it, but it crosses my mind when I least expect it. Are we, the "Warriors of Hope," truly in the right? I tell myself that we are right and just every time, but sometimes I fail to convince myself. Do I not really want this? When was the last time I truly felt guilt? Or remorse?
Obviously, we were treated horribly. The worst of the worst. But even so, I feel that I am in debt to my parents for raising me. I hate it, but I can't stop feeling that, no matter how they treated me, I still owe them affection and respect. It's a heavy feeling in my chest.
Something I can never tell Daimon, Jataro, Kotoko-chan, or even Monaca-chan. I need to stop thinking about things like this. I, we, have a revolution to think about now. A paradise to build. For us, and for all the children of this town. I need to save Monaca-chan. It's her I need to think about. She is much more precious to me than my own life.
We won't try to fool you with fancy words or say something you don't understand. Let's just be happy as kids. That's it. The Demons aren't needed because they're selfish and treat children like they own us, like we're just things to them. They think we do not have feelings. They lack imagination.
We don't need them, so we're going to kill them. The paradise we build will be awesome. No parents. No chores. No school. No homework. There will be a few rules, but that's it. Respect one another. Be so good that you will become a role model for others. When you feel that you are becoming a Demon, kill yourself. Follow the rules and help build a paradise of only children.
- Sleep lots, eat lots, play lots. - Anything that makes you look like a Demon, like drinking and smoking, is illegal. - Any items with a picture of a Demon on them are illegal.
Anybody who breaks the rules will suffer the punishment: "Gargle coffee for 20 hours straight."
- Wash hands before a meal. - Play video games no longer than 8 hours daily. - If you ever feel like you are showing signs of reincarnating into a Demon, take responsibility and end your own life.
Anybody who breaks the rules will suffer the punishment: "Hold in their poo all day after a big barbecue."
- If you have something on your mind, share it with the children around you. - Don't get involved in other people's business, like making fun of them for reading manga. - Don't ever try to remember what life was like with the Demons.
Anybody who breaks the rules will suffer the punishment: "Stuffed under the kotatsu in summer."
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Nagisa Shingetsu's Diary
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Why am I me? Why wasn't I just born better? Why am I not the child Father wanted?
But excuses aren't going to help me now. Only hopeless idiots fritter away their lives with self-hatred. I don't have time. I need to work even harder. I need to live up to Father's expectations. It doesn't matter how high they are. I don't want to disappoint him. Never again.
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Obviously, we were treated horribly. The worst of the worst. But even so, I feel that I am in debt to my parents for raising me. I hate it, but I can't stop feeling that, no matter how they treated me, I still owe them affection and respect. It's a heavy feeling in my chest.
Something I can never tell Daimon, Jataro, Kotoko-chan, or even Monaca-chan. I need to stop thinking about things like this. I, we, have a revolution to think about now. A paradise to build. For us, and for all the children of this town. I need to save Monaca-chan. It's her I need to think about. She is much more precious to me than my own life.
Children's Paradise
Preamble
We don't need them, so we're going to kill them. The paradise we build will be awesome. No parents. No chores. No school. No homework. There will be a few rules, but that's it. Respect one another. Be so good that you will become a role model for others. When you feel that you are becoming a Demon, kill yourself. Follow the rules and help build a paradise of only children.
Commandments I
- Anything that makes you look like a Demon, like drinking and smoking, is illegal.
- Any items with a picture of a Demon on them are illegal.
Anybody who breaks the rules will suffer the punishment: "Gargle coffee for 20 hours straight."
Commandments II
- Play video games no longer than 8 hours daily.
- If you ever feel like you are showing signs of reincarnating into a Demon, take responsibility and end your own life.
Anybody who breaks the rules will suffer the punishment: "Hold in their poo all day after a big barbecue."
Commandments III
- Don't get involved in other people's business, like making fun of them for reading manga.
- Don't ever try to remember what life was like with the Demons.
Anybody who breaks the rules will suffer the punishment: "Stuffed under the kotatsu in summer."
Commandments IV
- Do not kill pets with "adorbs" faces.
- Do not lose hope.
Anyone who breaks the rules will suffer the punishment: "Hide your Video Games Somewhere You'll Never Find Them."